Saturday, November 22, 2008

Hey uterus, shut up already!

Spent the afternoon with the boys, watching a room full of preschoolers throw themselves around on gym equipment, gorge themselves on cake and stare single-mindedly as their friend opened gifts. In other words, at a birthday party. Big Dog's best friend was celebrating his 5th birthday, and they fully enjoyed the experience. Not at all altered by fact that we very nearly missed the party because I was trying to wrap a newly purchased birthday gift in the car while parked at Target. While the boys played, I got a chance to catch up with some of the other moms and in a stunning turn of events, I found out that one of my friends is pregnant with her third child. I'm thrilled for her, and the prospect of another tiny baby in our circle of acquaintances is always exciting. And then my baby-clock started ticking. Loudly.

I've mentioned before that I would really like to have another baby. Yeah, for those of you who know me, I know, you think I'm nuts. Still, something about another baby keeps stabbing around in the back of my mind. Sometimes it even makes it to the very front. I mean, I know I don't want one right now, but maybe sometime. But Mr. Dog says no, and I have to respect that.

Maybe if I keep thinking of all the reasons it would be a terrible terrible idea, I can effectively kill that little part of my heart that longs for one more. Or at least string my desire along until I'm no longer able to procreate, I mean hell, I'm no spring chicken by most people's standards. Maybe if I focus on the fact we already are chronically sleep deprived, or that we live in a giant unfinished falling down house, or that I suck at being pregnant, or that breastfeeding really wasn't easy, or that babies are expensive, or that three kids might actually do me in...yeah, not working.

But I'm going to keep on trying. Hard.

6 comments:

Marinka said...

Oh, that's tough. Is he a firm "no", or is there wiggle room?

Katheryne said...

Don't you wish sometimes that you could just tune out that deep hormonal nagging? Let me know if you figure out a cure! My hubs says no too. Damn them, they have no idea!

followthatdog said...

I think he's pretty firm on it. He says it nicely but I think the soft edge is just packaging for a solid core.

Mrs. F said...

The only way I am ever having another baby is if I have another husband to go along with it.

Hahahahahahaha...

But sometimes I get the pang, so I know how you are feeling.

Renée aka Mekhismom said...

Girl I want another too and I only have one. So the "battle" is on with my husband. He says no,I say yes. Guess I have to trick him.

Z said...

My uterus is talking to me, too... Especially as one of our friends just had a baby yesterday!

For us, it's a "someday" - it's just tough waiting for that day!!!

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